Night Terrors

I woke up screaming from the sheer agony of it all
The sweat dripping from my brow
She isn’t here anymore
She can’t reach me
But she lies within my soul and creeps into my mind whenever she feels the need
This evil that clings to me
Toxic and permanent
I wish that I could wash it away
But no shower could be hot enough
I remember her scowling
And telling me that I was worthless
Yet she was the one that didn’t know how to survive
And she hated me for it
She hated me for my strength
For my beauty
For my heart
She used my heart to destroy the things thatIi held dear
Because the things that mattered to me were irreplaceable
And she marveled at how I still stood upright
As if I were a tree that could not be felled

Author: jessicaambateman

I am a survivor of childhood abuse on the verge of speaking out. I have waited my whole life to have the luxury of spilling my guts and blogging is going to become part of that journey.

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