Broken Trust

How can I ever trust anyone’s emotions?

When they cry to me?

When they tell me that they love me?

When they say that they’re thinking of my best interest?

Nobody knows me

I’ve made sure of that

Because the one person that knew the most

Used it against me

Set me up for failure

Reveled in it

And took my success as challenges to break me

She must’ve said:

“How can I break her if she keeps coming back up?”

“Why can’t I just drown her in her sorrows?”

“Why isn’t she tired enough yet?”

“To let the torrent take her?”

“To give up her fight to get to the other shore?”

“When all I’ve done is place my hand atop her head every time she surfaced?”

How can I believe anyone’s gaze?

Anyone’s touch?

How can I ever NOT feel alone?

She has taken it away

My faith in love

The one thing that remains broken, trust

Author: jessicaambateman

I am a survivor of childhood abuse on the verge of speaking out. I have waited my whole life to have the luxury of spilling my guts and blogging is going to become part of that journey.

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